Facing the Bitter Reality

High school was a time mixed with fun and you have to start thinking about the future. In my last year of high school, I was busy with exams, tutoring, stressed, bored, excited, stressed again, excited again, bored again, at last I graduated. After I graduated, it didn't end there, because my hard work continued to get into college. I first became acquainted with and fell in love with the world of art at the end of my high school years, I also searched further about art majors. Finally, after making up my mind, I abandoned my intention to major in literature after graduating from high school and decided to take drawing lessons which provided special training. to take the entrance exam for the arts department.

It didn’t end there, many new obstacles appeared in my life. From failing to enter the Art major that I had prepared for a year, losing loved ones, growing up, chasing new dreams, until I became who I am now. In the eyes of adults who have lived longer, they usually tend to address life's issues—according to today's youth—with trifles, yes, that's true, because they've experienced it and managed to get through it. While I myself had my own difficulties, that was my toughest obstacle that I faced at the time. I realized that as the era progresses, the issues faced by young people will also be different. The same goes for the next generations.

At the time, I felt that moment was the toughest point in my life because of the many beatings I got in a short period of time, the first time I faced new things. If you imagine it like a spinning wheel, I was at the lowest position. Somehow there seemed to be a turning point in my life that I feel, the bitter reality that is not as beautiful as expected. After that, as I spent a lot of time contemplating, the question arose in my mind: where should I go next?.

After making up my mind, I decided to return to my first choice, even so I still maintained my passion for drawing. Since then I have the principle that if I really like something, don't hesitate to do it regardless of what we will get in the end. However, that doesn't mean we are reckless without solidifying ourselves first, as a result I have come to appreciate the process as well as learn about new things. For one year, I spent my time learning new things that I never got at school, that's what I could get apart from my one failure. For example , I learnt how to use photoshop, and learning new things certainly won't hurt. 

Of all the obstacles I faced, I realized that I was able to get through it until I became who I am now. Pain in life will indeed help us to grow to be strong to prepare for new things. In the end, no matter what life disciplines we learn or life principles we adhere to, the most important thing is to survive. The more I grow older, the more I realize that whatever I do my life must be meaningful, and I must adapt. I've heard statements that say, "There's only one difference between winners and losers: winners know how to stand when they fall, losers are more comfortable staying on the ground," it hit me hearing that statement for the first time, how could I not, because I've been there. However, I'm proud of me that at least I was able to get back up.

It's good if we are able to survive while maintaining idealism, it's even better if we survive while achieving our dreams. Life is hard, reality is not always as beautiful as we imagine, however, life goes on and time will not wait for us. So, don't stop there.

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This is one of my favorite works I did when I participated in writing bootcamp last year.